One Year!

One year ago today, I was faced with my biggest challenge of my life.  I was diagnosed with Stage 3 breast cancer.  Looking back at the year, it's still hard to believe what I have all gone through:  6 months of chemo, 2 surgeries, and 37 rounds of radiation.  I've been through physical therapy twice, and have had some not so fun side effects with my tamoxifen pill.  I'm also still getting herceptin.

Yesterday at the dinner table my son Gavin started talking about God.  He was saying how much he loved God, but he was scared to die.  I told him that I was too.  I said when I first got diagnosed I was very scared.  We talked about why God died on the cross and how great it is going to be in heaven.

God was there with me through the hard days, the pain, the tears.  He has given me the strength to make it through each day.

Blessings by Laura Story 

We pray for blessings

We pray for peace
Comfort for family, protection while we sleep
We pray for healing, for prosperity
We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering
All the while, You hear each spoken need
Yet love is way too much to give us lesser things

'Cause what if your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know You're near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

We pray for wisdom
Your voice to hear
We cry in anger when we cannot feel You near
We doubt your goodness, we doubt your love
As if every promise from Your Word is not enough
All the while, You hear each desperate plea
And long that we'd have faith to believe

When friends betray us
When darkness seems to win
We know that pain reminds this heart
That this is not our home

What if my greatest disappointments
Or the aching of this life
Is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can't satisfy
What if trials of this life
The rain, the storms, the hardest nights
Are your mercies in disguise